Self Worth

What if I lost myself
Just for a moment
Would you still love me
Would you still care?
What if you woke tomorrow
And this life ended there
Did I help make a change
Did I help with something great
Has this life
Helped another 
Did it find purpose
Or was it always an empty shell?
Many have these questions
Only a few like there answer
Many live this life
To go out only caring about self
If you have no purpose
But to only look out for self
Then you deserve
Nothing but what your dealt
If you found your calling
Your place in the world
Your deserve
More than life itself
If you can make a difference
Then your life was well spent
But many try not
And then the life is worthless 
  

The Prophecy

She's a queen
Without a kingdom
He's a king
Without a crown
They live in a world
So profound
Where the music
They hear
In the heat of the night
Puts their there hearts
In delight
He says to her
"Let's sin tonight
Tonight while the moon is dark
And the stars are bright
As the reflect in your blue eyes"
She smiles
He laughs
Their eye's lock
He moves closer
She blushes
Eyes locked
Heartbeat in sync
She says to him
"This feels right
Before you......"
He puts his finger on her lips
Before she can say another word
He tells her softly
"Not to worry
You're a queen
You'll find your land
You'll find you king
Just as we found this"
She smiles
Their breathing heavies
She inches close
Hoping he will take the final steps
With a deep shy
He kisses the queen
Her face now red with with excitement
She exclaims
"On this kiss
In this foreign land
This mysterious place
We shall have a kingdom
In which we are free"
Suddenly a crown appeared on his head
A new kingdom beneath her feet
It seems that this king and queen
Where two lovers meant to be
Faith pulled them together
May it not tear them apart
Even thought there still in the dark
May their friendship
Surpass the test of time
For he is a king
An atheist in the house of Christ
She is a queen
A member of a shatter cult
They will find each other
No matter how dark the night
The prophets have seen it
And I the poet
Have dreamed it
Thus their fate is sealed

The Queen and I

I wish I could dance
The night away
On a single prayer
But love I'm an atheist
With a Napoleon complex
Does my prayers get answered?
Jesus is your virtue
And your the one I cling to
I want to be freer than my speech
Cause I can't say shit
Without offending the priest
I won't hurt
If you don't try to change me
I won't cry for you
If you do
You won't succeed
In my transformation
I'm going to dance
With my hands above my head
Cause I can't dance on my prayer
Just don't crucify me
For who I am
Because they all ready condemn
For the things I do
For the things they do not understand 
I won't cry
If you do
It's your choice
It's up to you
I am not what they make me out to be
But I seem to play the role 
I'm sitting on the edge of glory
The queen and I
In between the gates
Of damnation and paradise
Jesus is your virtue
Do I fit your picture?
The queen and I
Two outcast
Waiting on our lovers
To make the final choice
It seems so wrong
Yet it feels so right
The queen and I

Paradise Found

What's on the other side
Is the question I always ask
What happens after
My time leaves the hourglass
Is there a thereafter 
Or is it all a dream
Is the sins we leave for
Really all that they seem
She said she found paradise
In between the sheets
He said he loved her
But that was just make believe
He got what he wanted
She thought he was what she needed
They both dipped in sin
But what they truly wanted
What they truly needed
Was LOVE
That thing that we have
The same LOVE
That makes every moment we spend 
Mean the world to me
As long your in my arms
Everything is alright
Love pure of doubts
Pure of innocents
Many live in lust
Much more live in sin
We are living in love
Which means our paradise
Is within  

Blank.I.Am

I am poet
So I dress in all black
I am a song writer
All I do is love
I am from Brooklyn
All I do is shoot off
I am singer
All I do is cry
I am rapper
All I do is swear
So if I am all of this
And all these things contradict
Then where do I sit
Which came first
The label or the stereotype

Rocket

I want to fly to place

Where loving you

Is always the same

Where everything makes since

A place where everyone

Would sit back and let you be

Tell me where to go

Where might this place be

Fly the rocket high

Away from here

Family and friends

Just don’t understand

They pick apart for reason

Not to understand the heart

I find myself to blame

Even though you say it’s yours

We all knew the ending

Though we didn’t believe it true

My intentions pure

But thy kiss was tainted

Yet it felt so right

The tingle in my chest

The thoughts in my head

Whether you felt the same

I may never know

Just fly this rocket fast and true

Cause there is only this

Nothing matters after it

If this was our last dance

Would you be happy with how it ends?

Guide this rocket to where you want it to be

If this was your last

Could you get it all off your chest?

If this rocket crashes

Would you have enjoyed your last breathe?

We only have this rocket

It’s our last bet

For The Kids

We're trapped inside the matrix
Luckily we always do what's right
The world is so fucked up
Yet they say we have a chance
It's a load of bullshit
The kids don't stand a chance
If we cannot correct our present
How can the future survive ?
If the poet cannot write his words
And the musician can't play her song
How can we teach the kids
The wonderful art of love?
Exile the artists to the moon
Even though they made us promise
To never meet again
The music they make
Will send the world in a trance
People from across the land
Will all get up and dance
Free them from the matrix
Let's all clap our hands
We want to make a change
Let's all take a stance
Let's do what we love
So we all love what we do
Forget about the money
And we can save the world for you
If we can do this
Then the kids might
The kids might
No the kids will
The kids will have a chance

Going Home

I'm coming home
Where my kingdom awaits
Where they have forgiven
My many mistakes
Where they shall not cast judgment
Where riches and fame
Are just a step away
But I much rather be
In this foreign land
With you my love
Sipping lemonade
Hand in hand
A home without my love
Isn't a home at all
It's just another place
To lay my head
Please don't let me fall
We're up so high
But temptation is a cloud away
I'll hold you higher
If you resist
Cause I'll be back to you
Sooner than you think
Count the days my love
And it will drag along
Let your mind wander free
Then your heart will stay true
I have nothing to hide
My soul is in my eyes
Can you see our truth?
They can't see pass my shades
And that's why I sing
So I can find you again
Home it's where the heart is 
So I can truly come home
My heart is with you

Kombat of the Soul

And if we live in this world
A world where we do
What we think is best

You won't leave
I've come to early
I came to late

Let's kill tonight
Because you're still hurting
Yet that sting may be soothing

I want us to fly
I want us to laugh
I want us to dance

But you won't just dance to anything
After all music is all you've got
You're just waiting for the right song
 
I miss you
Don't say goodbye
I miss yesterday
And all the memories
But for now and maybe
Forever
We must smile like Sarah
Like Sarah because
With her smile we know
She doesn't care

Cause it's killing me inside
Just to look at you
Why is it killing me inside
To not let you know

We made our choices okay honey
Everything is going to be alright
Let the Scorpion heal your wounds
And not the Lin Kuei
Freeze your heart

Between the flames
And the games
May your heart
Remand the same
Keep this promise
And I will stay
To the end
If you stray
Everyday I'll look away
She'll keep me warm
After all he'll keep you safe
For now and maybe forever
Everything must be okay

Our love
Born on bad terms
Will always be in our hearts
If it sparks again
I'll be there too
Crashed landing back home
On the moon

Our Last Song

She tells me things
That I do not want to hear
She shows me things
That I do not want to see
I tell her there is nothing
That I can do
I say what I mean
She says I'm alright
But I'm dying
To feel alive again
Why am I dying
To live?
If I'm breathing right now
My pulse is real
My heart beat is fine
Yet there is something
On my mind
I have no doubts
Live with no regrets
But these butterflies
In my chest
Tell me I'm right
Say what you mean
Tell her she's right
Cause we might not live tonight
Walk into the abyss
If I'm dying tonight
Just take my hand
And let me die
On your sweet lips
Ohhhh
Why must it end like this?
We just gotten close
And they are now ripping us apart
May you grant my last?
Please allow me to die
On this kiss
Wrapped in my arms
Into the night
Would you risk your life?
For just one more night

Hearts Entwined

Give me a sign
Tell me everything
Is going to be alright
I wanna believe
I wanna believe
That when the sunshines
Your smile is just for me
That when we kiss
The world is at peace
A new world order
A revolution
In my bedroom
Keeps us safe
Our secret places
And holy space
I wanna believe
I wanna believe
That when I rains
Your sweet embraces is just as real
As the troops on this battlefield
Our hearts are at war
And as I surrender to your love
The revolution
In our bedroom
Marches on
Oh it marches on

Love 2012

Hey you,

Over there in your jacket all snug,

Would you mind coming over here?

Why, you ask,

Just so I can hold you in my arms,

Count your heartbeats,

And do whatever it is you ever dreamed of.

You say you want to fly,

Well how high love?

We both we’re falling,

But you were strong enough to catch me,

And now we stand the test of time,

How long will it last,

Cause we haven’t seen much of another,

We spend all our time with each other,

I run my fingers through your hair,

Yours down my spine,

We are playful,

We are real,

Everything I ever wanted to be, there are

Many things I wish we could do,

I would give you the world if I had it,

Leaving everything behind,

Yes we are young,

But we are in love,

Can you feel it?

Am I just rushing things?

Marriage is too soon,

Please don’t take that wrong,

Because I do love you,

Even though people say its too soon, that it is more

Likely to be that other word,

Lust that we all confuse with love,

Just trust me,

Take my hand,

Because when the world,

Begins a new at midnight tonight,

Know that I want to spend,

My last hour with you.

Cause everything

Is everything

When we realized

Everything was over

Before we pulled everything closer

And if this is the last poem

I wrote before everything  was truly over

Then everything

Would still be everything

Because being next to you

Makes everything alright

The feelings inside

And everything I feel outside

Is alright

Yes you make everything

Alright

Just To Vent

All boys that write always start over a girl. Then they replace that girl with another and another until they find a muse that sticks. This morning will be the last time I write about that topic. It's buried like this post will be by June. Always remember peace love and poetry.

The 7 Day Hiatus of The Poet

It's been a week
7 cold days
Since I last laid
Pen to paper
Since I last thought
Everything was alright
I tried and tried
And tried again
To write something heartfelt
Something real
Sadly I could not
My muse
She was playful
Yet my spirit was broken
You said goodbye
7 days ago
You hated me
7 days ago
I started a new
7 days ago
I hated me
7 days ago
And now I write
Part two
7 days later
I know I've hurt you
But regret it
I do not
Live and let live
Look back
I cannot
For now I write about three
I wanted she, truly I did
But I needed she, and still I do
She was everything I am
Yet she was my opposite
With her I am free
With her I am clean
She would let me be
She would make me see
She is a fairy
Happy and free
She is a rose
Protected and wild
If another had known them well
Maybe I would have never seen
And I am a puppy
Without a home
You taken me in
Fed me
Kept me warm
Taught me things
That will help me grow
I still feel like
I didn't deserve either
Of their kindness
For both there trust
I betrayed
Two sisters caught in a web
One broken
The other damage
Neither of us the same
And even though
This chapter will end
The story will be written
To be continued my friends