12 Days

12days until we hold hands again 12days until we kiss <3

14 Days

Ah talking with John always put my mind at ease. The claim is I'm an addict, what I'm addicted I'm not a liberty to discuss here. But he makes me realize that to move forward I need to take a step back. Cut off the ties to my past, by allowing myself to follow the path that fate has left me. Luckily for me fate has paired us up to meet very soon love. 14 day left and you know I love to count them down. Each night on the phone I learn something new. And maybe this blog entry isn't enough to show you. But I will try to at least do you the honor of counting them down love. Mwah!! see you soon.

Untitiled

There is shit I can't say,
Even though I would love to tell you it all,
I can not,
Silence is the oath,
And I must keep it,
So be mad if you must,
Just know the love is still here.

Bad Romance

(Lady Gaga)
I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and
All your lover’s revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance

(Me)
Only 18 and I think I'm in way over my head, (Whoa)
She got my heart,
She stole it from above, (Whoa)
Don't know where she came from,
Don't want her to leave, (Whoa)
If she plays the game,
I got an ace up the sleeve, (Oh)
She got me hooked,
I think its a disease, (Whoa)
I think it's love,
Love, love, love, I think it's love....


(Lady Gaga)
I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and
All your lover’s revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance

(Me)
Only 18, so she thinks that it lust, (Whoa)
She looking good,
So a guy, She can't trust, (Whoa)
Her last only lasted so long,
He hit a few times and the he was gone, (Whoa)
So to take her love,
I gotta take her revenge, (Whoa)
Its love, love, love, love,
I guess its love.

(Lady Gaga)
I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and
All your lover’s revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance

(Me)
I hope she can see,
That this right is real,
The connection,
And everything that I feel is real,
But the way she sees it,
I'm just trying to cop a feel,
I don't know why I stick around,
Every time she throws my emotions to the ground,
Damn this is love, love, love, love,
Yes its love...

(Lady Gaga)
I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and
All your lover’s revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Caught in a bad romance

(Me)
I think I want a little more,
I want your friendship,
Your trust,
Something more than lust,
Could we write a good romance?
Whoa oh oh oh oh oh,
Trying to write a good romance,
Whoa oh oh oh oh oh,
Trying to have a good romance.

......

Hey I want you to know that I will always do my best to make you proud.
But what would you do if you could be me for one night?
Would you live the life of bliss,
Or sit in the room and cry all night?
Cause I do both on occasion,
Sometimes both the same night.....

I wouldn't wish this on to you, I never wanted to hurt you. But being away from those I care about got me into some bad habits and to be honest I don't have many "friends" left, nor did I have many to begin with. I'm just going through a bad time in my life is all. I wouldn't want to do it to you.