Learners Permit

Took my exam, and got mines!!!! I’m so excited. I can't wait to get behind the wheel, look out world here I come!!!!!

Permitted

Am I permitted to speak?

To speak my mind,

My heart,

My soul, am I?

May I say things?

Things that you will love,

That you will hate,

That you will not understand, am I?

Am I, confusing you?

Misunderstanding,

Over looking,

Not listening to you, am I?

May I sit down?

To hear you,

To listen,

To learn,

To accept, who I am?

Paparazzi

The Incredible Lady Gaga Live

Awesome.

Toy Story 3 was Awesome!!!

Hanging out with Sacha was Awesome!!!

Homeless guy outside was Awesome!!!

Yet it feels empty because I had an awesome time yesterday. I hope you did too. As a non-active Twitter member, meaning I don’t tweet often, I managed to get it into my twitter account that I had one. While other socially active tweeters didn’t. :(
Oh well maybe next time right. ;-p

I just hope you had the same awesome experience that I did. *humph* I can’t believe I’m writing a post about someone not tweeting. Lol I’m just joking it wasn’t empty I honestly had a great time. Just wish you would of included it in your timeline.

OMGEE!!!

I just had some thoughts on what I should do. But they weren’t the purest things ever. I mean they aren’t evil neither. But still. Shaking my head as they would say. By the way who the hell is this they, they speak of?? Food for thought  isn’t it. Tonight I want to be a bad boy. Laugh out loud. I hope I don’t get myself into to much trouble.

Escape

The real trick is to get away from here. College is my only escape, I’m starting to hate being home. Like all my true friends have other things to do, so I’m stuck. The people I rely on seem to push me away, I just don’t know anymore. Well goodnight cruel world, I’ll see you in the morning.

I’ll Be There

A tear came to my eye,

Will you catch it?

You said if I’m mad,

Get mad you’ll stand by me,

And I by you,

Whenever,

Wherever,

You may need me,

I’ll be there.

Just know no matter what,

I’ll be there.

A Haiku

Peace Love Poerty,
Why do I need anything,
That isn't those three??

Down……

Recovery has been there with me Official  the 21 of June.  It’s the only thing that hasn’t confused me lately. My family hasn’t been able to help. I don’t really have nobody I could talk to without upsetting someone. So I came back to you blog, look at it  like this you’re special. You can’t switch up on me, or tell me to leave. Isn’t it real nice to know you can’t get rid of me blog? What no reply, you trying to get rid? Never mind sarcasm is crazy?

Anyway life is something else. Some things mean more to me than you. And I understand that. But don’t push me away. I actually love, contrary to what people may say. And hanging out with you makes me happy, but I’m happier with you. I’m happy waiting for you. Just don’t have me wait forever ok? Could we not go through this again?

Babe, I love you, could you write this down for me. I LOVE YOU….. Nothing will change that. You have my heart, hopefully you don’t crush it. Last time I was here, I feel off the bike at the top of the mountain, landed in a vat of acid, in shark infested water. In other words it was very very painful.

Going Through Changes

Jr. High was a bitch. Puberty was a bitch. High school was a bitch. College might be the same, but I don’t know. Last summer was a blast, but this one is something that I’m not enjoying. But as my Dad said it just started. Well I keep saying things are different because I’m going up. But if going up means shit constantly going wrong. I want to be forever young. I never had a stable home but at least it was something. It seems like the older I get the further away from the family I grow. Not just my mother’s side of the family, my father’s too. I think I’m just looking for someone who understands me. Someone that is going through it. But there is no one going through the same problems as you ever. But why the hell does growing up have so painful. Where are all those so call friends when you need them? Where are all those guidance counselors, anger management sponsors and coaches? Nowhere to be found as of now. At least the “friends” will be back soon.

 

Is it just me. I don’t to come off as bitter or upset. But everything is looking downhill. Luckily I’ve learn to look up and walk backwards. See from the top of the hill everything is down. And I’ve been at the top of this hill for a while. Hey will you catch me when I fall? Stick your hand out to help me up? Reach down from that pedestal so we could be side by side again? Oh damn, I’m asking a lot of questions again. Well at least I know if we take things this way I have a friend for a little longer. If we never make it back together, I’ll be a little bit upset. But I understand. I’ll wait a few more months. December makes a year. Should I wait longer? I mean love can wait forever right? I don’t know. I hope she doesn’t make me wait that long. She is here right now, and she says that there is nobody else. I believe her too.

 

Promise me if you decided to read this you wont be mad. You the reader, you my friend, and you the person who the second paragraph was directed to. A year feels like a life time. And after today it will feel like an eternity. If you can’t promise me that you won’t be made could you promise me this. That if I wait, that it wouldn’t be in vain.

Promises

I made a few promises to a few people. Today seems right to share them. Hope I’m not making a mistake.

To John: I’ll do it your way. Sit, wait, and bid my time. Also I got your back. Totally 100% in that decision you made. 

To Travis: You’ll be fine. It isn’t in your hands anymore.

To Kriss: I’ll never do anything to make you worry again.

To China: Shit you always got a friend in me.

To Dobby: I’ll never fall in love with anyone else. (Broken)

To My Familia: College is a trip but I’m going to get threw it.

To Sacha: We’ll do this however you want.

To you the reader: I’ll never stop doing this. Till the day I die I’m going to keep this blog open.

 

Now lastly to myself:

You’re not going crazy. Talking to yourself is normal.(Not Really) You’re going to be fine. No matter how this ends You got people who promised to be there no matter what. Even though you know they will leave. (Hopefully not everyone. But if everyone goes hopefully not all at once) Or you’ll probably push them away. You’re really good at that. Well just keep your head up. Take the pen before you take anything else man. Stay frosty.

Promises (Haiku)

You make promises,

To family, friends, others,

But not all are kept.

Fairy-tales

Hey I'm glad to see that people are doing good. John is extra happy with Briana, and I'm glad for him. Travis is doing something or another with China. Here wishing him the best. It seems that everyone is running a fairytale. Lol.... I sorta wish that I could be in a fairytale right now. Or a nice dream. Were we get to live happily ever after. Maybe I might write on tonight. Fairy-tales seem to always end nicely. Hopefully we all get to have one of those one day. Well later world..... Fairytale maybe coming soon.

Good Week

This week was a blast, work was a pain but it was all worth it because I got to spend sometime with that speical someone. I'm glad she lets me be myself and doesn't take me for granted. Also I'm reading this book its crazy, its called 13 Reasons Why. OMG!!!! I can't believe my work has me reading things I enjoy. Lol..... Anyway this week was awesome lets hope the next can be just as grand

FML Again

A second chance,
A new start,
I promise to make it worth wild,
Things will be different this time,
Even better than before,
Whenever, wherever, we may be,
Whatever, forever, I'll give you all my love,
And I've learned,
Love is and equal trade,
Full of pleasure and pain,
Never remaining the same,
But as long as were together,
We're safe forever.

This might be the last post, because right now I don't see no point in continuing. So when someone is writing my wiki page one day let them know that this right here my be the last time I write anything I care for. My inspiration might die tonight.

Its been 2 hours,
Since we last spoke,
With every second ticking,
I choke,
A simple message,
A little skimmer of hope,
Is all I ask to get by.

Orientation music video & single trailor

The First SWAT Team single!!! Shout-out to A-Sharp and C.J. some of the realist rappers from our time

Somethings Wrong

Hey before Google Chrome kicks me off again....
I got some new work to post, but my Blogger account is acting up....
Gotta go the page reloading......shit