Lost and Confused

I don’t know anymore. I go from bitter and angry, to being fake. I’m just trying to keep the peace.  I had a moment with someone I use to want to punch in the face. And it took a lot for that time to happen. I mean you pushed me to go with him. And we talked, we got to understand each other. Those brief moments to me were something different. I seen a different side of that person, which makes me want to try to pull a possible friendship out of a hat. Is there truly something wrong with that. Would that make me a fake person? I don’t know, I need some advice but I can’t find anyone. If someone stumbles over this post, please help me out.