A Reprise

Yesterday is behind me,

Yet I feel as if it is still here,

I cleared the air,

But still I cannot breathe…

 

Each word force from my lips,

I’m lost and numb,

The cold winds are like daggers to the chest,

Each gust piercing into my soul…

 

Paranoia is a toxin,

It is all around,

Inhale it once,

Then shaking it is impossible.

Try as you may,

Try as you might,

Once inhaled you’ll never be right…

 

My thoughts whether imaginary or not,

Still cloud my judgment,

Watching patterns,

Learning, developing,

And hurting myself every step of the way.

 

What I failed to notice,

Was how bad I was hurting you,

You and you’re importance yet to be notice,

I hope I didn’t make to bad of a mistake,

I hope my soul the reaper does not take,

I hope you ignore my moment of weakness,

And I hope this all is just a bad dream,

So I won’t have to repeat this……..