If Not For You

Sometimes you just wanna give up,
But you know no matter what,
You know you just got to go on,
Even when you break down and cry,
No matter what you do to cloak the pain inside,
It burns,
It burns in your chest,
It burns in your heart,
It burns in your soul,
You’re in pain,
But you can’t show it,
Till it gets to that boiling point,
Cover it please,
But you spill,
Weather its tear after tear,
Drop after drop,
Or shell after shell,
It’s like reliving hell after hell,
Then when you do find peace,
It creeps back into your life,
Just like the fucking police,
It’s bad when you show love,
It’s bad when you shed tears,
It’s bad when you leak blood,
See pain is like a flood,
Maybe you should fill void with drugs,
Cause blood and slugs,
Leave too much of a gap,
Then there’s nothing to grab after that,
Even though you rather die,
Then to take it back,
See when you like this,
Dark thought seem to form,
Depression becomes your norm,
Wrists get slit,
People get hit,
Shit happens and nobody knows what started it,
Parts of you get you into fits,
As you get real sick,
With yourself,
Really bad to your health,
Then you realize,
Life’s a bitch isn’t,
End it all tonight,
You just might,
The knife looks real bright,
As your future looks real dim,
Changes of survival are slim,
But then,
As you go to end it all,
The knife begins to fall,
Shorten life becomes tall,
So you know you fell in love,
Shit you would have been better off on drugs,
Misery loves your company,
And you must love it,
You let her make you sad,
Flip your whole day around,
So your love for her,
Makes you a depress,
Sad sack,
All day,
Every day,
Just wishing she would be yours,
If only it worked that way,
Wishing for a change,
Won’t change a thing,
So please,
Stop whining,
Stop crying,
And do something about it.