Concept Living

She was an abused batted beaten soul,
An artist many would oppose,
Family friends,
All looked the other way,
Her cries for help ignored,
Her escape door closed,
Only two options,
Opt in or opt out,
Her choice was to weather the storm,
Ride it along.

He was a scorned lover student of the word,
An artist who repressed himslef,
Ignoring signs of help,
Losing touch with reality,
Fall in different traps of insanity,
Drunken nights filled with so much marijuana smoke,
Self pity, self loathing, self hating,
Blaming self for things he had no control of,
Two choices,
Give in to depression,
Or rise against it,
Unfortunately he lost to his,
Coasting off to a distance land.

She found him,
On an island,
Lost without passion and purpose,
She was revived and rejuvenated from her experenices,
Him indifferent to the world,
Felt like a lost soul,
Their hearts entwined,
In both body and mind,
Thus their past,
They forgotten.

Two kindred spirits,
On a journey,
Into the beyond,
Beyond thought,
Beyond sight,
Beyond heaven,
Beyond hell,
Beyond humanity,
Beyond this,
Thus making them forever conceptually in love.

Fresh Start?

If I reached out to you Though text messages Of sweet nothing's I know it would make you smile But if I told you I was scared to hurt you Even though you said I never could And I said I never would Would you be offended If I was a little resistant Had to readjust my system I'm not scared of you I'm scared of me You're a butterfly Full of beauty and grace I'm a flame With a destructive taste So may you accept my apology The truth is I see you highly And I'm very earthly Your more like Jane Jetson Futurist fly shit I'm more like Fred Flintstone Rock in a hard place I'm excited about the future Okay with the right now Anxious for your responses To jumpy to let it show Didn't know how to word this So I hope this note Would let it show Again sorry for the confusion Stupidity is my conclusion I just hope my stupidity Leads us to something more Simple and Clean

Minority Report

If we make everything a racial issue
Because of the pigment in my skin tissue
I'll raise the debt ceiling
With all the tension in this room
If I read the Koran
And wear a turban
I'll be stopped by the cops
Before I make it to the local Stop and Shop
Searched and degraded
Because in this country I made it
The land of the free
More like the land of the freely oppressed
If I'm not a christian
The country detest
When the troops come home
Who do we send next
Young and gifted
We are next
Young and gifted
Society will stress
But young and gifted
Is society's best
We can make a change
If society lets
Lets cut the chains of oppression
Empty out every weapon
End the war on drugs
So my brothers catch no slugs
End the war on terror
So I may sleep
Bang bang
We lost another heart beat
As I pour my soul into this page
More blood is being spilled on the stage
There could never be any peace
As long as the worlds leaders
Are asleep

Sleeping in Twilight

I can't sleep without seeing your face
You haunt my dreams
Taking my mind to a dark and eerie place
I see things that only most can imagine
You do things some nights my mind can't fathom
Yet I keep dreaming
Realty is so last week
The new scene is depended on this mind state
That sleep equals greatness
And accepting you're miles away
Is no longer an option
When I wake I lie still
Waiting for the next dream
Last night you kissed me
It felt as if you where there
You felt so real
The adventures we share
Are only able in sleep
For if they were real
My soul is the lords to keep
The angel in my dreams
The one in my heart
The one in some distance town
That my words cannot reach
Knows thy emotions are real
So she dreams of other things
To make the time go by
They say I waste my life
Living dream by dream
Shy by shy
I say they are foolish
For they will never feel a love
As pure and as innocent as mine

The Drummer Boys

Can you hear the beating?
A million drums at once
All beating to the same tune
All in sync at once
They never miss a beat
They never take a break
Each and everyday
They learn and play a new song
A song that we shall sing
If you where aware of the beauty
That these million drummers make
You wouldn't want to sing
The things we must sing
For every drummer boy
Another life is born
For every few across the world
Another life is torn
Because the differences in the world
Cannot be understand
The drummer boy beats his  drum
Against his friend
Ten drummer boys beating against religion
Another ten beat against the color of skin
Now I don't really like this song
Yet I must sing along
It's my drum against his
Because my government tells fibs
And they taught me to fear
His many differences
Not to learn and embrace
Use destroy and erase 
We drummer boys make beauty
Just not in the way
Us normal people can enjoy
We make beauty
For those who love war
We make music for the sleeping
Drummer boys

Secrets

I don't know if I told you
But the world is all yours
This life is made for you
You got all the right moves
And this is the right place
It was made for you
You're perfect
With your imperfections
Things are looking up
You got it made
The world is linking up
Your piece is saved
It was made for you
A heart
A mind
A soul
Like it was made for you
All this time you needed to see the truth
May you now confess
You know what you want from here
You know it was made for you
You have the keys
Place them in the ignition
The world has no secrets
It was made for you
What would you like to hear?
It was made for you
Nothing else to find
It was made for you
And now the secret to find
Is made for you 

Fighting for Love

Devils may cry

When ever angels sing

And I’ll do everything wrong

If it keeps you out of pain

To me its right

And I’ll only move left

If  it keeps you safe

I’ll die tonight

To protect you my hearts delight

I’ve kissed some sinners

Stabbed some saints

But all that matters

Is you know how I feel

Though all the trails and tribulations

We have each other

We each have scars

We all come with baggage

We’ve learn to manage

At the start of this dance

We both we’re damaged

But we fixed it

We’ve made it this far

Lets see if we can make it further

Self Worth

What if I lost myself
Just for a moment
Would you still love me
Would you still care?
What if you woke tomorrow
And this life ended there
Did I help make a change
Did I help with something great
Has this life
Helped another 
Did it find purpose
Or was it always an empty shell?
Many have these questions
Only a few like there answer
Many live this life
To go out only caring about self
If you have no purpose
But to only look out for self
Then you deserve
Nothing but what your dealt
If you found your calling
Your place in the world
Your deserve
More than life itself
If you can make a difference
Then your life was well spent
But many try not
And then the life is worthless 
  

The Prophecy

She's a queen
Without a kingdom
He's a king
Without a crown
They live in a world
So profound
Where the music
They hear
In the heat of the night
Puts their there hearts
In delight
He says to her
"Let's sin tonight
Tonight while the moon is dark
And the stars are bright
As the reflect in your blue eyes"
She smiles
He laughs
Their eye's lock
He moves closer
She blushes
Eyes locked
Heartbeat in sync
She says to him
"This feels right
Before you......"
He puts his finger on her lips
Before she can say another word
He tells her softly
"Not to worry
You're a queen
You'll find your land
You'll find you king
Just as we found this"
She smiles
Their breathing heavies
She inches close
Hoping he will take the final steps
With a deep shy
He kisses the queen
Her face now red with with excitement
She exclaims
"On this kiss
In this foreign land
This mysterious place
We shall have a kingdom
In which we are free"
Suddenly a crown appeared on his head
A new kingdom beneath her feet
It seems that this king and queen
Where two lovers meant to be
Faith pulled them together
May it not tear them apart
Even thought there still in the dark
May their friendship
Surpass the test of time
For he is a king
An atheist in the house of Christ
She is a queen
A member of a shatter cult
They will find each other
No matter how dark the night
The prophets have seen it
And I the poet
Have dreamed it
Thus their fate is sealed

The Queen and I

I wish I could dance
The night away
On a single prayer
But love I'm an atheist
With a Napoleon complex
Does my prayers get answered?
Jesus is your virtue
And your the one I cling to
I want to be freer than my speech
Cause I can't say shit
Without offending the priest
I won't hurt
If you don't try to change me
I won't cry for you
If you do
You won't succeed
In my transformation
I'm going to dance
With my hands above my head
Cause I can't dance on my prayer
Just don't crucify me
For who I am
Because they all ready condemn
For the things I do
For the things they do not understand 
I won't cry
If you do
It's your choice
It's up to you
I am not what they make me out to be
But I seem to play the role 
I'm sitting on the edge of glory
The queen and I
In between the gates
Of damnation and paradise
Jesus is your virtue
Do I fit your picture?
The queen and I
Two outcast
Waiting on our lovers
To make the final choice
It seems so wrong
Yet it feels so right
The queen and I

Paradise Found

What's on the other side
Is the question I always ask
What happens after
My time leaves the hourglass
Is there a thereafter 
Or is it all a dream
Is the sins we leave for
Really all that they seem
She said she found paradise
In between the sheets
He said he loved her
But that was just make believe
He got what he wanted
She thought he was what she needed
They both dipped in sin
But what they truly wanted
What they truly needed
Was LOVE
That thing that we have
The same LOVE
That makes every moment we spend 
Mean the world to me
As long your in my arms
Everything is alright
Love pure of doubts
Pure of innocents
Many live in lust
Much more live in sin
We are living in love
Which means our paradise
Is within  

Blank.I.Am

I am poet
So I dress in all black
I am a song writer
All I do is love
I am from Brooklyn
All I do is shoot off
I am singer
All I do is cry
I am rapper
All I do is swear
So if I am all of this
And all these things contradict
Then where do I sit
Which came first
The label or the stereotype

Rocket

I want to fly to place

Where loving you

Is always the same

Where everything makes since

A place where everyone

Would sit back and let you be

Tell me where to go

Where might this place be

Fly the rocket high

Away from here

Family and friends

Just don’t understand

They pick apart for reason

Not to understand the heart

I find myself to blame

Even though you say it’s yours

We all knew the ending

Though we didn’t believe it true

My intentions pure

But thy kiss was tainted

Yet it felt so right

The tingle in my chest

The thoughts in my head

Whether you felt the same

I may never know

Just fly this rocket fast and true

Cause there is only this

Nothing matters after it

If this was our last dance

Would you be happy with how it ends?

Guide this rocket to where you want it to be

If this was your last

Could you get it all off your chest?

If this rocket crashes

Would you have enjoyed your last breathe?

We only have this rocket

It’s our last bet

For The Kids

We're trapped inside the matrix
Luckily we always do what's right
The world is so fucked up
Yet they say we have a chance
It's a load of bullshit
The kids don't stand a chance
If we cannot correct our present
How can the future survive ?
If the poet cannot write his words
And the musician can't play her song
How can we teach the kids
The wonderful art of love?
Exile the artists to the moon
Even though they made us promise
To never meet again
The music they make
Will send the world in a trance
People from across the land
Will all get up and dance
Free them from the matrix
Let's all clap our hands
We want to make a change
Let's all take a stance
Let's do what we love
So we all love what we do
Forget about the money
And we can save the world for you
If we can do this
Then the kids might
The kids might
No the kids will
The kids will have a chance

Going Home

I'm coming home
Where my kingdom awaits
Where they have forgiven
My many mistakes
Where they shall not cast judgment
Where riches and fame
Are just a step away
But I much rather be
In this foreign land
With you my love
Sipping lemonade
Hand in hand
A home without my love
Isn't a home at all
It's just another place
To lay my head
Please don't let me fall
We're up so high
But temptation is a cloud away
I'll hold you higher
If you resist
Cause I'll be back to you
Sooner than you think
Count the days my love
And it will drag along
Let your mind wander free
Then your heart will stay true
I have nothing to hide
My soul is in my eyes
Can you see our truth?
They can't see pass my shades
And that's why I sing
So I can find you again
Home it's where the heart is 
So I can truly come home
My heart is with you

Kombat of the Soul

And if we live in this world
A world where we do
What we think is best

You won't leave
I've come to early
I came to late

Let's kill tonight
Because you're still hurting
Yet that sting may be soothing

I want us to fly
I want us to laugh
I want us to dance

But you won't just dance to anything
After all music is all you've got
You're just waiting for the right song
 
I miss you
Don't say goodbye
I miss yesterday
And all the memories
But for now and maybe
Forever
We must smile like Sarah
Like Sarah because
With her smile we know
She doesn't care

Cause it's killing me inside
Just to look at you
Why is it killing me inside
To not let you know

We made our choices okay honey
Everything is going to be alright
Let the Scorpion heal your wounds
And not the Lin Kuei
Freeze your heart

Between the flames
And the games
May your heart
Remand the same
Keep this promise
And I will stay
To the end
If you stray
Everyday I'll look away
She'll keep me warm
After all he'll keep you safe
For now and maybe forever
Everything must be okay

Our love
Born on bad terms
Will always be in our hearts
If it sparks again
I'll be there too
Crashed landing back home
On the moon

Our Last Song

She tells me things
That I do not want to hear
She shows me things
That I do not want to see
I tell her there is nothing
That I can do
I say what I mean
She says I'm alright
But I'm dying
To feel alive again
Why am I dying
To live?
If I'm breathing right now
My pulse is real
My heart beat is fine
Yet there is something
On my mind
I have no doubts
Live with no regrets
But these butterflies
In my chest
Tell me I'm right
Say what you mean
Tell her she's right
Cause we might not live tonight
Walk into the abyss
If I'm dying tonight
Just take my hand
And let me die
On your sweet lips
Ohhhh
Why must it end like this?
We just gotten close
And they are now ripping us apart
May you grant my last?
Please allow me to die
On this kiss
Wrapped in my arms
Into the night
Would you risk your life?
For just one more night

Hearts Entwined

Give me a sign
Tell me everything
Is going to be alright
I wanna believe
I wanna believe
That when the sunshines
Your smile is just for me
That when we kiss
The world is at peace
A new world order
A revolution
In my bedroom
Keeps us safe
Our secret places
And holy space
I wanna believe
I wanna believe
That when I rains
Your sweet embraces is just as real
As the troops on this battlefield
Our hearts are at war
And as I surrender to your love
The revolution
In our bedroom
Marches on
Oh it marches on

Love 2012

Hey you,

Over there in your jacket all snug,

Would you mind coming over here?

Why, you ask,

Just so I can hold you in my arms,

Count your heartbeats,

And do whatever it is you ever dreamed of.

You say you want to fly,

Well how high love?

We both we’re falling,

But you were strong enough to catch me,

And now we stand the test of time,

How long will it last,

Cause we haven’t seen much of another,

We spend all our time with each other,

I run my fingers through your hair,

Yours down my spine,

We are playful,

We are real,

Everything I ever wanted to be, there are

Many things I wish we could do,

I would give you the world if I had it,

Leaving everything behind,

Yes we are young,

But we are in love,

Can you feel it?

Am I just rushing things?

Marriage is too soon,

Please don’t take that wrong,

Because I do love you,

Even though people say its too soon, that it is more

Likely to be that other word,

Lust that we all confuse with love,

Just trust me,

Take my hand,

Because when the world,

Begins a new at midnight tonight,

Know that I want to spend,

My last hour with you.

Cause everything

Is everything

When we realized

Everything was over

Before we pulled everything closer

And if this is the last poem

I wrote before everything  was truly over

Then everything

Would still be everything

Because being next to you

Makes everything alright

The feelings inside

And everything I feel outside

Is alright

Yes you make everything

Alright

Just To Vent

All boys that write always start over a girl. Then they replace that girl with another and another until they find a muse that sticks. This morning will be the last time I write about that topic. It's buried like this post will be by June. Always remember peace love and poetry.

The 7 Day Hiatus of The Poet

It's been a week
7 cold days
Since I last laid
Pen to paper
Since I last thought
Everything was alright
I tried and tried
And tried again
To write something heartfelt
Something real
Sadly I could not
My muse
She was playful
Yet my spirit was broken
You said goodbye
7 days ago
You hated me
7 days ago
I started a new
7 days ago
I hated me
7 days ago
And now I write
Part two
7 days later
I know I've hurt you
But regret it
I do not
Live and let live
Look back
I cannot
For now I write about three
I wanted she, truly I did
But I needed she, and still I do
She was everything I am
Yet she was my opposite
With her I am free
With her I am clean
She would let me be
She would make me see
She is a fairy
Happy and free
She is a rose
Protected and wild
If another had known them well
Maybe I would have never seen
And I am a puppy
Without a home
You taken me in
Fed me
Kept me warm
Taught me things
That will help me grow
I still feel like
I didn't deserve either
Of their kindness
For both there trust
I betrayed
Two sisters caught in a web
One broken
The other damage
Neither of us the same
And even though
This chapter will end
The story will be written
To be continued my friends

When Worlds Collide

He had the world
He threw it away
I got a taste
I didn't deserve it
Yet you gave it to me
Knowing I was going to soon be with another
You said that world deserve me more
Not once did I think about my own
If I thought of my people
The other world I would not know
But I thought of yours
I thought of hers
Why did he throw so much away?
Why does another threaten our union?
Why did I ally with another?
Because we aren't planets
Or galaxies
We are humans
Logic and emotions
Ran by a CPU
The scientist call it a brain
The romantics call it heart
I chose the ladder
For both sides chose me
They both felt right
I took the one less traveled by
I didn't take a coat
For both roads would be warm
And both souls will be torn
As I wonder to myself
Am I really worth it?

The Other Side

I'm putting my all into this
Without knowing
Where it's going yet
Blood sweat and tears
I need to get my emotions in check
Head over heels
I think thats the cliche
Whatever it is
I feel like it today
When we kissed and such
A chill hit my spine
For some reason
Everything was fine
I still don't know where were going
I just hope we'll get there soon
It's never sunny
On the dark side of moon
And I don't want
To be left there again
Even though I feel
Over there may be
Another close friend

Stealing Sunshine

Daydream
I feel asleep amongst
The flowers
What a wonderful day
Who knew flowers
Could hold you
Make you forget about the day
Take you to a place
A wonderful place to play
Sleeping in this bed of flowers
For so many hours
Left my mind at bay
Daydream
Altered my reality
In a bunch of flowers
Where hours felt like days
People try to remove
Me from the flowers
Mr. Brown Hat's flamethrower power
Couldn't ruin our day
Nor could her "love"
Change  our forecast
And the third
Wishes us the best
But must only look on
Do to unlikely behavior
Hopefully those that wish this harm
Can just go away
So that I may lay
In this magical flower bed

The Course Outline

I see you today
After our amazing weekend 
Changed
Like reverted to your old self
How you where when I met you
Brokenhearted
Tossed away 
Forgotten
Wait what's that?
A spark
A change in the force
A decision has been made
I know you aren't happy with me
But hopefully this will past
I was scared of just this
The rose is sweet
You are too
You said she deserve me
So I we both knew
What we might lose
The scars will heal
As the time passes
Out last 48
I will always remember
You will always be that girl to me
No matter what happens
Killed my pain you have
After all the trouble 
Through the woods
It was amazing 
Everything was amazing
Safely rocking back
And forth in your arms
Flowing with the many
Emotions we now deny
Cause new
Emotions now flourish 
My thoughts race
I can't explain it yet
Love this feeling I do
Yet I feel like
I may lose another friend
I'm lost in a sea of thoughts
But this doesn't matter
As long as we end up happy
Us three or you two
As long as I never see
Either of us broken
Like that again

Another Night

Another chance encounter
A crazy night it has been
A night that didn't go as planned
An innocent night
Just like the last
We had fun
We laughed
We smile
We held
But unlike the last kissed
We acted on our thoughts
Again we had fun
But was tonight innocent?
We never intended it to go that far
I'm scared that this may hurt us
But will it be the fall?
My thoughts are
Forget the would
They don't know what happen
To be honest
I don't either
It really is just between us
Cause lady
You were on fire
And you took to place
That I haven't seen in a while
It was bliss
Like a dream
It started with a sweet kiss
I wish we could have another one like it
That is up to we
The next decision is up to me
Unfair but clear
I know I need to make it
Yet I don't know what to do
If only it was as simple
As writing this
If only it was as wonderful
As kissing you
If only this decision
If only
If only
If only it was as amazing
As wonderful
As beautiful
As you

 

Last Night

Oh man

The thoughts that ran though

Were a little to much to process

We had fun

It was all innocent

We talked

We laughed

We smile

We held

We had a good time

We did nothing more

T.G.I.F. but we aren’t the religious type

And I don’t want to change you

Nor do I  want to hurt you

I rather see you flourish

In the life that you are living

Then to do something else

That you may not be feeling

Do what’s right for you

Because no matter what

We will always have this

It was a trip

And if you want

I’d gladly do it all again

Can I?

Can I make you happy?
At least long enough
To make you smile
Even if we aren't together
Can you stay for a while?
Because I truly
Love your smile
What if just for a day
We may be free to play a game?
A game of chance
Maybe a game of luck
No it's just a game
A game of trust
Do you trust me?
Take the fall
I'll spring up for you
In the hot of summer
Or winters cold
If you trust me
Our friendship will grow

Thank You AS/ER

When you meet me I was weak

I was smitten

By this girl

Who turn out to be a succubus

Damn

My life force she sucked

And all you said was

“Cheer up things will get better”

Or something along those lines

I didn’t like being like that

You didn’t know me

So where do we go from there?

You held my hand

In the dark of night

Explored the darkness of my soul

And then became my light

Between me and you

You might have saved my life

Before we walked

I stood in the middle Main

Before the E.R. or a red car

I chose the ladder and ended near you

I didn’t know that day

That I’d be looking for roses to sniff

And would be keeping one close to my heart

But alas you don’t know me

Where do we go from here?

Hopefully hand and hand

With a nice flower in my ear.

The Devil Wears A Hat

Hello, can you hear me?

Is anyone there?

No, didn’t think so

*BANG, BANG, BANG*

Phew glad no one saw that

Wait you’re hear now

Excellent

Why does it take a smoking gun to get a response?

You sir, over their in the brown hat,

I’m sorry to inform you that

Today isn’t your day

Kiss your wife and kids goodbye sir

Today I give you new life

*BANG, BANG, BANG*

See that people

Just like that everybody

Dance like him

It’s funny how the tune is changed

When the weak is holding a loaded gun

Can you please dance to the beat sir? *BANG*

After all I’ve been dancing to yours months *BANG*

What’s that you say? *BANG*

I can’t hear you *BANG*

Speak up *BANG*

Please, I can’t hear you *BANG*

That’s right it’s hard to speak

With a barrel down your throat

Can you please tell everyone how we got to this?

People put your hands in the air

And don’t make a sound *BANG*

But don’t get the wrong idea

I’m going to shoot you *BANG*

Tell them of the deception sir

Please they all need to know

Why they all must die

Tell them of the lies

That tore many apart

Tell them of the innocents

That you stripe

But don’t move *BANG*

I’m trying hard not to hit you

Tell them of the family

The one you are trying to rip apart *BANG*

'Tell them of your sister

Who defended you from the start

Please don’t leave out any details *BANG*

Where getting to the best part

……………… Do you hear that?

Silences, is it?

Are they all in shock? *BANG*

Don’t open your eyes yet

Tell them all why you did it sir

……………….. Amazing, simply amazing *BANG*

Look around sir

They are all dead

Look at this place

You’ve killed everyone here

That story was sad

What you did could never be forgiven

This is a tragedy sir

A massive slaughter

And yet you smile

But now that all the people are dead

It is time

Time to remove your mask sir

So that those still breathing

Show them your face

See ladies and gentlemen

I never had to shoot you

Just look at this face

We we’re already dead

Now for my last trick

*BANG*

My body has hit the floor

Because he tricked us all

The only way to move on

IS to kill the attachment at the start

He imprinted on our souls

Until he is gone

We must wait

And wait until

Once more we can be whole 

Until we all see past his game

We wait to be whole

A Rose In The Sky

A breathe of fresh air
A sunny delight
Oh what brings us here
On this amazing of Spring night
It is a flower you say
One that only grew bud yesterday
And yet no other is as sweet
As the flower that we meet
For it innocent filled with joy
Blush red face
For all eyes to gaze
Beauty in its features
One cannot deny
For even the bee
Will stop and sigh
At the red rose in the sky
I care for the rose
Hopefully the rose do I
A new day will dawn
A new feeling I will try
Maybe it is worth a try
To tend that rose
That rose in the sky

Artist Statement

Could you write me a poem artist? One that ends differently from the rest, one that allows for a smile,
Not the one you are writing now, where life doesn't make sense.
Or maybe I don't want to understand, I just want to forget.
Pretend that it's real, not just another hollow point.
A waste of time and space, the void is real, and it's coming.
Could you write me a poem artist?
One that ends differently from the rest, maybe one that end differently from the rest.
One that pulls me away from this, I don't want to be here, I just want to go.
But nowhere isn't a place that exist, so soon I'll not exist.
Just fade away from this.....

Is Worse

The time is near
So don't fight
I'm ready to disappear
See I don't know
It's not your fault
I'm ready to go
And I know
You know you know
That this is a red moon
The world is ending soon
We might as well have some fun
It's quite predictable
And I'm dying
Just to tell you the truth
If you only knew
The date is near
You'd question everything you hear
I don't know
You played your game
It's spiraling out of control
Are you ready to go?
Dodging the rain
Adverting gaze
Who is telling the lie
Is it me or the fly
On the pile of shit
We call your life

Another Story

You're amazing
At least thats what I thought
It's incredible
That I could stomach 
Your thought
Cause I gave you my heart
Ask you to be gentle
You lied from the start
But I was simple
So you played me
I get it now
You play the soft spoken
Heart-broken
Tattered soul
To draw in the innocent
So you could
Strip them
Leave bare
Naked an weak for the world to see
Then drift back
To your underworld
With your hoofed foot lover
Leave us in the hell
In which you came
For I can't stop you
The story ends the same   

The Dog and I

The only thing suicidal here

Is the dog

It runs back to beatings

Which consist of whips, chains, swords

The dog is set free

But it runs back to me

I beat it some more

It comes back for some more

While the dog was away

I played games with all types of dogs

I feed them

Nurtured them

They bit me

And when the dog came back again

I learned that I wasn’t the master

The master was dog

P.S. the dog was I

Simply going along

Reaching for another

Horn to play

Another life to jam

Another child to claim

I was the suicidal dog

The Final Bow

Hey the rumors are true

I am dead

You shot me in the chest

And then in the head

I didn’t have a good thing

Then it slit my throat

The snake slit my throat

But first it ate my heart

Now I’ll gladly chose death over company

The company that was kept

Was only an illusion

But alas

None of this matter

The question is

Which died first

Your integrity or my heart?

Because I no longer

Have a pulse

But you where never alive

And this all is a lie

So I’m done with it all

As my last request

Can you close my casket please?

Need You

I’m unpredictable

Maybe it’s time to go

And I don’t know

Just that I’m dying

To feel alive again

We are young

We are free

Don’t cry

There is nothing to fear

Let’s just watch New York disappear

I need you

Just take my hand

It’s time to go

I need you

No time to waste

The time is now

As we watch all our sins disappear

Fault lines

Rip across the lands

And I don’t know

Just take my hand

As I dive into the rift

Time to go

I need you

I need you

Time to go

I need you

Just take my hand

I don’t know

Just take my hand

Time to go

I don’t need you

I know I don’t need you

I need you

To go

Love?

The things I love,

Will be the things I lose,

For I always let them go,

They always deserve something better,

Love let go,

Let’s go love,

We are lost,

Maybe we were never found,

Maybe we never knew,

The things we had,

We weren’t ready for,

I was young,

I was dumb,

And now I’m ready.

Squares and Teddy Bears

The simple things in life

Are the things we forget

The sounds

The feelings

The beauty

The uniqueness of everything

Living itself is what we forget to do

Thoughts From My Prison House

4 walls, bare, white

Puke green floor

Filled with the dreams of those before me

Visiting hours become strict after 5

The warden wants no

Individuals

Only perfect clones

Many of us rebel

With contraband in our cells

And small traces of who we are

I’ve been caught many times

My silencing will be this Friday

Which means it’s already too late for me

Heed my warning

Do not let them change you

Bend the rules

The system hates error

Error loves you

Color Lines

Black and white

Are not colors

But values or hues

According to the art world.

America’s world,

Black and white are races

So I’m running

Does that make me a racist?

Red, white, and blue

Are just colors

But many of us will die for those colors

Not just the soldiers

Never forget the gangbangers

The corner boy, the block huggers

The boy going home or your homeboy

Shells don’t discriminate.

Rainbows are beautiful

So why are they used to

Demean

Why not wave in support

Instead of target for hate?

My pot of gold

Is now a pot of sorrow

In this world that I hope to save by tomorrow.

Let It Be

If I sleep tonight
I'll make it though another day
But if I stay the night
This night is filled with enemies
I may not survive
But alas, do I need another day?
That is not truly warned
I need not another day
To fulfill my goals
I just need tonight
One night to be free
To be myself
Give me just this night
To let my dreams run wild
I'm ready to give it this chance
If you are willing to go the distance
Just this one night love
Let me live
Let me be who I was meant to be
Let me be me

Battlefield 19/21

It’s all out there now love

My bullets, my blood, my tears,

All that is left is this shield

As I drop it I hope you watch me

See it’s all gone

BARE

My troops are exhausted

My generals are all dead

All that is left is me

And your vast armies

At this point I may be defeated

Please do not take advantage of my weakness

As easily as I surrender

I can start a new

Even though I rather be there

Amongst the ones you hold dear

Please do not take advantage of your position

As hard as it is to walk away

I would not regret it

Even though my defense is gone

Does not mean I won’t rebuild

You may have won this battle

But love I see that

We are in for a long war 

Perfection

They say demons can't love
Some say you can teach them
Others fear them
I embrace them as if I was one
Mistreated outcasted
I just want to be accepted
Not changed or fit in
I am not perfect
Just human
If thou be without sin
Cast me away
If thou be holier than I
Cure my imperfections
For after all I'm
Just human
You must be God

Re-Clothed

Hey that corner in which you speak
Will drive the heart to yearn for better
He may have broke you
But you have now broken free
You will prove him wrong
What he stripped will be replaced
No longer must you mold to his liking
But if you choose to revert back to that state
His little play thing
That corner will become your tomb
And soon you wont hate him
You will only hate self
Self hatred
is the heart crying in
A heart crying in
Isn't what makes you attractive
Its the joy hidden in that corner
That makes people wanna help
Even though they see you
They can see your pain
They see your love
They know it is pure
So they walk away
Until you can fully shake him
No one can help
No one will try
Sadden by this fact
They continue to walk
As if you would push

Neverland

Dear Ms. Pan,

You’ve got  me

You’ve made me believe in forever

Forever young

Thank you.

But sadly this is a fantasy

No one is forever

We all grow up

As long as we leave Neverland

I’m sorry for trying to take you away from it

I thought you were ready

Obviously not

My bad for trying

Thank you.

You held my hand through

Neverland

I guided you through the dark

Neverland

You made me smile

Neverland

You made me laugh

Neverland

You made me cry

Neverland

I fell for your game

Neverland

People warned me about you

Neverland

Since the first mistake

Neverland

I didn’t believe them

Neverland

So I gave you another chance

Neverland

Another shot at this

Neverland

Right they were

Neverland

Again you hurt me

Neverland

Here I am cold, sad, broken

Neverland

But you will never get that chance again

Neverland

Neveragain

Absence

I'm in one of those moods
In which only God can hurt me
You know me
You know God
But do you really know us
For I truly don't know you yet
Yet that is to say you never opened up Never took down the wall
But invited me to break it
You have
For you are afraid to open up
Afraid another may hurt you
Sadly I say this:
You don't know me
You never wanted to
Because you know I would never hurt you You just want me to be him
To replace him
To be that thrill you can reuse
To be the joy that is here now
And soon to be replace by another
I am your light bulb
Religion is your excuse
God isn't coming my dear
Because you replaced him too

The Symphony

Already the face has changed
The clock has went back
Placing us right where we were
In a perfect reality
Where I fall for you again
But you may lead me to my doom again
Down a path of destruction
Once again
Will it be different if I say . .... ... ...?
What you all are thinking
You said it to me but is it real?
It can't or can it
Either way I must walk away
At least for the moment
Right now the trip
Might be twice the journey
At least we made it half way there
Positive thinking right?
Would you allow it to pick from where we dropped off
Or would you start a new course?
Never be the same again
xoxoxo Madness

Exodus 3:33

Finish him
Off with his head
Other things that represent the end
During our Genesis
Things seemed so amazing
So prefect
So pure
But as things progressed 
We seemed to be corrupt
Your wants, my needs
Seem to never mesh well
But I realize I fell for a ghost
Who fell for the shape-shifter and the trickster

God how can I be so dumb

Anyway lets figure this out
How could we host this party?
Lost on this boat 
Trapped on this page
If I jumped up and walked away
Would you ask me to stay?
Let's find out my dear
How much you truly care

Poetry at 4:33 AM

Why do we play these games?
Back and forth
Flirting when we both know
Any advances made you shoot down
What is the point?
Ups and downs
You speak on thing we both know
Could never come true
Why pull him along?
Left and right
You build him up but we both know
You're ready to tear him down and move to the next thing
Are you aware?
This lifestyle ends up alone
Down and out
A change in pattern may be for the best
At least let him relieve his stress
Prove them all wrong
Let him be right for opening back up
Not regret his choices
He is playing a more dangerous game
Than the one you replaced him with
He is risking it all for you
And the second biggest crime is
That you are to blind to see
Lady he wrote you off
He took you back
Yet you play with his heart
He writes about you
In relation to his lack of religion
You became a symbol of his lack of fate
But the biggest crime
Is that he does not know
How to make you aware

Where I’m Suppose To Be

Tonight, I wish on

This 11:11

That where I am

Tonight, is where I’m suppose to be

That this night would be the most important

Tonight,

Tonight, what is it about you

Tonight,

That makes me want to be forever here at

This moment if I died I want

To cherish just

This me in my solace, happy with myself

Therefore being happy with you is a

Thrill

PSA

Sorry I've been away for so long. Just getting shit together in my own head, in my own life. If I still have readers let me know. Lost enough people in this school cycle. Shit happens I guess. Just know whoever rode  the storm with me. You wont have to wait for much longer, I'll be back to me sometime soon.

Philosophical Thinking

Failure isn’t just a hobby

It’s my occupation

I’ve seem to let you all down

At least as far as I can see

But I’m proud of it

Disappointment doesn’t bother me

Those who I still disappoint

Don’t really know who I am

Therefore they do not exist

Homecoming

Young man,
Welcome back,
Back to the world that raised you,
You have taken many things from it,
Now it is our turn to receive,
The nurturance and life we have given you,
You now give to others,
It’s just a shame the way you chosen to give back.
You could have given in many other great ways,
But you’re skills would have been wasted,
You took not just from us but from many,
But alas you return it all ten fold,
This world is joyous,
You are finally home,
This world is joyous
Your world is cold.