When Worlds Collide

He had the world
He threw it away
I got a taste
I didn't deserve it
Yet you gave it to me
Knowing I was going to soon be with another
You said that world deserve me more
Not once did I think about my own
If I thought of my people
The other world I would not know
But I thought of yours
I thought of hers
Why did he throw so much away?
Why does another threaten our union?
Why did I ally with another?
Because we aren't planets
Or galaxies
We are humans
Logic and emotions
Ran by a CPU
The scientist call it a brain
The romantics call it heart
I chose the ladder
For both sides chose me
They both felt right
I took the one less traveled by
I didn't take a coat
For both roads would be warm
And both souls will be torn
As I wonder to myself
Am I really worth it?

The Other Side

I'm putting my all into this
Without knowing
Where it's going yet
Blood sweat and tears
I need to get my emotions in check
Head over heels
I think thats the cliche
Whatever it is
I feel like it today
When we kissed and such
A chill hit my spine
For some reason
Everything was fine
I still don't know where were going
I just hope we'll get there soon
It's never sunny
On the dark side of moon
And I don't want
To be left there again
Even though I feel
Over there may be
Another close friend

Stealing Sunshine

Daydream
I feel asleep amongst
The flowers
What a wonderful day
Who knew flowers
Could hold you
Make you forget about the day
Take you to a place
A wonderful place to play
Sleeping in this bed of flowers
For so many hours
Left my mind at bay
Daydream
Altered my reality
In a bunch of flowers
Where hours felt like days
People try to remove
Me from the flowers
Mr. Brown Hat's flamethrower power
Couldn't ruin our day
Nor could her "love"
Change  our forecast
And the third
Wishes us the best
But must only look on
Do to unlikely behavior
Hopefully those that wish this harm
Can just go away
So that I may lay
In this magical flower bed

The Course Outline

I see you today
After our amazing weekend 
Changed
Like reverted to your old self
How you where when I met you
Brokenhearted
Tossed away 
Forgotten
Wait what's that?
A spark
A change in the force
A decision has been made
I know you aren't happy with me
But hopefully this will past
I was scared of just this
The rose is sweet
You are too
You said she deserve me
So I we both knew
What we might lose
The scars will heal
As the time passes
Out last 48
I will always remember
You will always be that girl to me
No matter what happens
Killed my pain you have
After all the trouble 
Through the woods
It was amazing 
Everything was amazing
Safely rocking back
And forth in your arms
Flowing with the many
Emotions we now deny
Cause new
Emotions now flourish 
My thoughts race
I can't explain it yet
Love this feeling I do
Yet I feel like
I may lose another friend
I'm lost in a sea of thoughts
But this doesn't matter
As long as we end up happy
Us three or you two
As long as I never see
Either of us broken
Like that again

Another Night

Another chance encounter
A crazy night it has been
A night that didn't go as planned
An innocent night
Just like the last
We had fun
We laughed
We smile
We held
But unlike the last kissed
We acted on our thoughts
Again we had fun
But was tonight innocent?
We never intended it to go that far
I'm scared that this may hurt us
But will it be the fall?
My thoughts are
Forget the would
They don't know what happen
To be honest
I don't either
It really is just between us
Cause lady
You were on fire
And you took to place
That I haven't seen in a while
It was bliss
Like a dream
It started with a sweet kiss
I wish we could have another one like it
That is up to we
The next decision is up to me
Unfair but clear
I know I need to make it
Yet I don't know what to do
If only it was as simple
As writing this
If only it was as wonderful
As kissing you
If only this decision
If only
If only
If only it was as amazing
As wonderful
As beautiful
As you

 

Last Night

Oh man

The thoughts that ran though

Were a little to much to process

We had fun

It was all innocent

We talked

We laughed

We smile

We held

We had a good time

We did nothing more

T.G.I.F. but we aren’t the religious type

And I don’t want to change you

Nor do I  want to hurt you

I rather see you flourish

In the life that you are living

Then to do something else

That you may not be feeling

Do what’s right for you

Because no matter what

We will always have this

It was a trip

And if you want

I’d gladly do it all again

Can I?

Can I make you happy?
At least long enough
To make you smile
Even if we aren't together
Can you stay for a while?
Because I truly
Love your smile
What if just for a day
We may be free to play a game?
A game of chance
Maybe a game of luck
No it's just a game
A game of trust
Do you trust me?
Take the fall
I'll spring up for you
In the hot of summer
Or winters cold
If you trust me
Our friendship will grow

Thank You AS/ER

When you meet me I was weak

I was smitten

By this girl

Who turn out to be a succubus

Damn

My life force she sucked

And all you said was

“Cheer up things will get better”

Or something along those lines

I didn’t like being like that

You didn’t know me

So where do we go from there?

You held my hand

In the dark of night

Explored the darkness of my soul

And then became my light

Between me and you

You might have saved my life

Before we walked

I stood in the middle Main

Before the E.R. or a red car

I chose the ladder and ended near you

I didn’t know that day

That I’d be looking for roses to sniff

And would be keeping one close to my heart

But alas you don’t know me

Where do we go from here?

Hopefully hand and hand

With a nice flower in my ear.

The Devil Wears A Hat

Hello, can you hear me?

Is anyone there?

No, didn’t think so

*BANG, BANG, BANG*

Phew glad no one saw that

Wait you’re hear now

Excellent

Why does it take a smoking gun to get a response?

You sir, over their in the brown hat,

I’m sorry to inform you that

Today isn’t your day

Kiss your wife and kids goodbye sir

Today I give you new life

*BANG, BANG, BANG*

See that people

Just like that everybody

Dance like him

It’s funny how the tune is changed

When the weak is holding a loaded gun

Can you please dance to the beat sir? *BANG*

After all I’ve been dancing to yours months *BANG*

What’s that you say? *BANG*

I can’t hear you *BANG*

Speak up *BANG*

Please, I can’t hear you *BANG*

That’s right it’s hard to speak

With a barrel down your throat

Can you please tell everyone how we got to this?

People put your hands in the air

And don’t make a sound *BANG*

But don’t get the wrong idea

I’m going to shoot you *BANG*

Tell them of the deception sir

Please they all need to know

Why they all must die

Tell them of the lies

That tore many apart

Tell them of the innocents

That you stripe

But don’t move *BANG*

I’m trying hard not to hit you

Tell them of the family

The one you are trying to rip apart *BANG*

'Tell them of your sister

Who defended you from the start

Please don’t leave out any details *BANG*

Where getting to the best part

……………… Do you hear that?

Silences, is it?

Are they all in shock? *BANG*

Don’t open your eyes yet

Tell them all why you did it sir

……………….. Amazing, simply amazing *BANG*

Look around sir

They are all dead

Look at this place

You’ve killed everyone here

That story was sad

What you did could never be forgiven

This is a tragedy sir

A massive slaughter

And yet you smile

But now that all the people are dead

It is time

Time to remove your mask sir

So that those still breathing

Show them your face

See ladies and gentlemen

I never had to shoot you

Just look at this face

We we’re already dead

Now for my last trick

*BANG*

My body has hit the floor

Because he tricked us all

The only way to move on

IS to kill the attachment at the start

He imprinted on our souls

Until he is gone

We must wait

And wait until

Once more we can be whole 

Until we all see past his game

We wait to be whole

A Rose In The Sky

A breathe of fresh air
A sunny delight
Oh what brings us here
On this amazing of Spring night
It is a flower you say
One that only grew bud yesterday
And yet no other is as sweet
As the flower that we meet
For it innocent filled with joy
Blush red face
For all eyes to gaze
Beauty in its features
One cannot deny
For even the bee
Will stop and sigh
At the red rose in the sky
I care for the rose
Hopefully the rose do I
A new day will dawn
A new feeling I will try
Maybe it is worth a try
To tend that rose
That rose in the sky

Artist Statement

Could you write me a poem artist? One that ends differently from the rest, one that allows for a smile,
Not the one you are writing now, where life doesn't make sense.
Or maybe I don't want to understand, I just want to forget.
Pretend that it's real, not just another hollow point.
A waste of time and space, the void is real, and it's coming.
Could you write me a poem artist?
One that ends differently from the rest, maybe one that end differently from the rest.
One that pulls me away from this, I don't want to be here, I just want to go.
But nowhere isn't a place that exist, so soon I'll not exist.
Just fade away from this.....

Is Worse

The time is near
So don't fight
I'm ready to disappear
See I don't know
It's not your fault
I'm ready to go
And I know
You know you know
That this is a red moon
The world is ending soon
We might as well have some fun
It's quite predictable
And I'm dying
Just to tell you the truth
If you only knew
The date is near
You'd question everything you hear
I don't know
You played your game
It's spiraling out of control
Are you ready to go?
Dodging the rain
Adverting gaze
Who is telling the lie
Is it me or the fly
On the pile of shit
We call your life

Another Story

You're amazing
At least thats what I thought
It's incredible
That I could stomach 
Your thought
Cause I gave you my heart
Ask you to be gentle
You lied from the start
But I was simple
So you played me
I get it now
You play the soft spoken
Heart-broken
Tattered soul
To draw in the innocent
So you could
Strip them
Leave bare
Naked an weak for the world to see
Then drift back
To your underworld
With your hoofed foot lover
Leave us in the hell
In which you came
For I can't stop you
The story ends the same   

The Dog and I

The only thing suicidal here

Is the dog

It runs back to beatings

Which consist of whips, chains, swords

The dog is set free

But it runs back to me

I beat it some more

It comes back for some more

While the dog was away

I played games with all types of dogs

I feed them

Nurtured them

They bit me

And when the dog came back again

I learned that I wasn’t the master

The master was dog

P.S. the dog was I

Simply going along

Reaching for another

Horn to play

Another life to jam

Another child to claim

I was the suicidal dog

The Final Bow

Hey the rumors are true

I am dead

You shot me in the chest

And then in the head

I didn’t have a good thing

Then it slit my throat

The snake slit my throat

But first it ate my heart

Now I’ll gladly chose death over company

The company that was kept

Was only an illusion

But alas

None of this matter

The question is

Which died first

Your integrity or my heart?

Because I no longer

Have a pulse

But you where never alive

And this all is a lie

So I’m done with it all

As my last request

Can you close my casket please?

Need You

I’m unpredictable

Maybe it’s time to go

And I don’t know

Just that I’m dying

To feel alive again

We are young

We are free

Don’t cry

There is nothing to fear

Let’s just watch New York disappear

I need you

Just take my hand

It’s time to go

I need you

No time to waste

The time is now

As we watch all our sins disappear

Fault lines

Rip across the lands

And I don’t know

Just take my hand

As I dive into the rift

Time to go

I need you

I need you

Time to go

I need you

Just take my hand

I don’t know

Just take my hand

Time to go

I don’t need you

I know I don’t need you

I need you

To go

Love?

The things I love,

Will be the things I lose,

For I always let them go,

They always deserve something better,

Love let go,

Let’s go love,

We are lost,

Maybe we were never found,

Maybe we never knew,

The things we had,

We weren’t ready for,

I was young,

I was dumb,

And now I’m ready.

Squares and Teddy Bears

The simple things in life

Are the things we forget

The sounds

The feelings

The beauty

The uniqueness of everything

Living itself is what we forget to do

Thoughts From My Prison House

4 walls, bare, white

Puke green floor

Filled with the dreams of those before me

Visiting hours become strict after 5

The warden wants no

Individuals

Only perfect clones

Many of us rebel

With contraband in our cells

And small traces of who we are

I’ve been caught many times

My silencing will be this Friday

Which means it’s already too late for me

Heed my warning

Do not let them change you

Bend the rules

The system hates error

Error loves you

Color Lines

Black and white

Are not colors

But values or hues

According to the art world.

America’s world,

Black and white are races

So I’m running

Does that make me a racist?

Red, white, and blue

Are just colors

But many of us will die for those colors

Not just the soldiers

Never forget the gangbangers

The corner boy, the block huggers

The boy going home or your homeboy

Shells don’t discriminate.

Rainbows are beautiful

So why are they used to

Demean

Why not wave in support

Instead of target for hate?

My pot of gold

Is now a pot of sorrow

In this world that I hope to save by tomorrow.

Let It Be

If I sleep tonight
I'll make it though another day
But if I stay the night
This night is filled with enemies
I may not survive
But alas, do I need another day?
That is not truly warned
I need not another day
To fulfill my goals
I just need tonight
One night to be free
To be myself
Give me just this night
To let my dreams run wild
I'm ready to give it this chance
If you are willing to go the distance
Just this one night love
Let me live
Let me be who I was meant to be
Let me be me

Battlefield 19/21

It’s all out there now love

My bullets, my blood, my tears,

All that is left is this shield

As I drop it I hope you watch me

See it’s all gone

BARE

My troops are exhausted

My generals are all dead

All that is left is me

And your vast armies

At this point I may be defeated

Please do not take advantage of my weakness

As easily as I surrender

I can start a new

Even though I rather be there

Amongst the ones you hold dear

Please do not take advantage of your position

As hard as it is to walk away

I would not regret it

Even though my defense is gone

Does not mean I won’t rebuild

You may have won this battle

But love I see that

We are in for a long war 

Perfection

They say demons can't love
Some say you can teach them
Others fear them
I embrace them as if I was one
Mistreated outcasted
I just want to be accepted
Not changed or fit in
I am not perfect
Just human
If thou be without sin
Cast me away
If thou be holier than I
Cure my imperfections
For after all I'm
Just human
You must be God

Re-Clothed

Hey that corner in which you speak
Will drive the heart to yearn for better
He may have broke you
But you have now broken free
You will prove him wrong
What he stripped will be replaced
No longer must you mold to his liking
But if you choose to revert back to that state
His little play thing
That corner will become your tomb
And soon you wont hate him
You will only hate self
Self hatred
is the heart crying in
A heart crying in
Isn't what makes you attractive
Its the joy hidden in that corner
That makes people wanna help
Even though they see you
They can see your pain
They see your love
They know it is pure
So they walk away
Until you can fully shake him
No one can help
No one will try
Sadden by this fact
They continue to walk
As if you would push

Neverland

Dear Ms. Pan,

You’ve got  me

You’ve made me believe in forever

Forever young

Thank you.

But sadly this is a fantasy

No one is forever

We all grow up

As long as we leave Neverland

I’m sorry for trying to take you away from it

I thought you were ready

Obviously not

My bad for trying

Thank you.

You held my hand through

Neverland

I guided you through the dark

Neverland

You made me smile

Neverland

You made me laugh

Neverland

You made me cry

Neverland

I fell for your game

Neverland

People warned me about you

Neverland

Since the first mistake

Neverland

I didn’t believe them

Neverland

So I gave you another chance

Neverland

Another shot at this

Neverland

Right they were

Neverland

Again you hurt me

Neverland

Here I am cold, sad, broken

Neverland

But you will never get that chance again

Neverland

Neveragain

Absence

I'm in one of those moods
In which only God can hurt me
You know me
You know God
But do you really know us
For I truly don't know you yet
Yet that is to say you never opened up Never took down the wall
But invited me to break it
You have
For you are afraid to open up
Afraid another may hurt you
Sadly I say this:
You don't know me
You never wanted to
Because you know I would never hurt you You just want me to be him
To replace him
To be that thrill you can reuse
To be the joy that is here now
And soon to be replace by another
I am your light bulb
Religion is your excuse
God isn't coming my dear
Because you replaced him too

The Symphony

Already the face has changed
The clock has went back
Placing us right where we were
In a perfect reality
Where I fall for you again
But you may lead me to my doom again
Down a path of destruction
Once again
Will it be different if I say . .... ... ...?
What you all are thinking
You said it to me but is it real?
It can't or can it
Either way I must walk away
At least for the moment
Right now the trip
Might be twice the journey
At least we made it half way there
Positive thinking right?
Would you allow it to pick from where we dropped off
Or would you start a new course?
Never be the same again
xoxoxo Madness

Exodus 3:33

Finish him
Off with his head
Other things that represent the end
During our Genesis
Things seemed so amazing
So prefect
So pure
But as things progressed 
We seemed to be corrupt
Your wants, my needs
Seem to never mesh well
But I realize I fell for a ghost
Who fell for the shape-shifter and the trickster

God how can I be so dumb

Anyway lets figure this out
How could we host this party?
Lost on this boat 
Trapped on this page
If I jumped up and walked away
Would you ask me to stay?
Let's find out my dear
How much you truly care

Poetry at 4:33 AM

Why do we play these games?
Back and forth
Flirting when we both know
Any advances made you shoot down
What is the point?
Ups and downs
You speak on thing we both know
Could never come true
Why pull him along?
Left and right
You build him up but we both know
You're ready to tear him down and move to the next thing
Are you aware?
This lifestyle ends up alone
Down and out
A change in pattern may be for the best
At least let him relieve his stress
Prove them all wrong
Let him be right for opening back up
Not regret his choices
He is playing a more dangerous game
Than the one you replaced him with
He is risking it all for you
And the second biggest crime is
That you are to blind to see
Lady he wrote you off
He took you back
Yet you play with his heart
He writes about you
In relation to his lack of religion
You became a symbol of his lack of fate
But the biggest crime
Is that he does not know
How to make you aware

Where I’m Suppose To Be

Tonight, I wish on

This 11:11

That where I am

Tonight, is where I’m suppose to be

That this night would be the most important

Tonight,

Tonight, what is it about you

Tonight,

That makes me want to be forever here at

This moment if I died I want

To cherish just

This me in my solace, happy with myself

Therefore being happy with you is a

Thrill