Ich ban Gott
Ich ban Gott
Ich ban Gott
Or am I hallow
Like the day is long
Empty like the glass full
Short like winter cold
Lost lost lost
Found
Find
Friend
Or am I dreaming
Alone dead
Where is god
Ich ban Gott
Hallow thy name
Hallow thy self
Hallow thy hope
Love die
Sweet repeat
Question all
Answer none
Tonight like any other night,
I go alone,
Nobody by my side,
They come to visit all round,
Sadly not me.
Freedom or shall I say free doom,
Is the story of the engineer,
Curse to ride forever,
Transporting lovers and killers alike,
Never being happy, never being loved
Only to be there and make sure the story moves along
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on
With or with out you
The show goes on
They say they need but
The show goes on
All alone in this place
The show goes on
Drinking oh so long
The show goes on
All night till the morning
The show goes on
Middle finger to the world so cold
The show goes on
Broken hearted
The show goes on
Lost of hope
The show goes on
Alright or not
The show goes on
Ready or not
The show goes on
Broken dreams dreamt so long
The show goes on
…..and the show goes on
…..and the show goes on
…..and the show goes on
Born alone,
Die alone,
Just me, myself, and
I,
Everyday,
Just me, myself, and
I,
Nobody around,
Nobody to see,
Time to let the soul free,
Die alone,
Reborn alone.
Only a ghost could be that amazing,
A figment of your imagination,
Could only work on the revolution.
The Vatican, the faith, the Pope,
All symbols of hope?
Or a symbol of the system,
Designed to keep you down,
Maybe mainstream,
It doesn’t matter, still working on the revolution.
So don’t runaway from me,
Run towards the unknown,
For the scene you’re, isn’t real,
Are you ready for the revolution?
Are you willing to follow me to the revolution?
Are you ready for the revolution?
Can you lead the revolution…………
Isn’t it funny how the people closest to you change,
Find yourself using breakup lines in the mirrors,
It isn’t you it’s me, you keep telling yourself that,
She didn’t change and he didn’t neither,
It’s you.
Now you sitting in your bedroom floor thinking what to do,
Party, you do it every weekend anyway,
Grab a bottle a vodka then call over a few friends,
What’s wrong with a drink or two?
You’re in college right, do it come on don’t pussy out,
You don’t have a scholarship or a relationship,
So what is there to lose?
You’re going to be an artist anyway,
This college shit isn’t for you,
Poetry or music either way you feel the same,
Don’t worry about it,
Nobody likes you anyway finish that 20th shot.
Good good, are you still with me,
If so stand up on the couch,
Nice, I still have him,
Lean out the window buddy you can do it,
Scream let it all out, you feel better?
No, didn’t think so,
Here hit this, a few puffs won’t hurt,
Cool you’re going back to your room alone either way,
Might as well enjoy the company right,
Come on, go kiss that girl,
You don’t know her,
What harm could it do?
Genius isn’t that what you call it,
Well I’m depression, but I like genius better,
Aren’t you happy you write this well,
But it’s only when your sad,
I love the way you lie,
Especially to yourself.
Hey you how you feeling right now,
6:33am can’t sleep right,
Yeah yeah, same story different night,
Two shots knock you out nicely,
But you’re sorry, I meant to refill you.
How many people do you see tonight,
How many are actually there?
Is the help really helping,
Or are you just scared?
Why am I here you ask?
Simple you need me,
You need this,
This is all you have,
This is it,
Without you this is nothing,
Without this you are nothing,
Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing,
Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing.
Hey don’t die on me,
Look I have your friends here,
Look, hey guys on three,
1….2….3….
Please be careful,
See wasn’t that helpful?
Stop thinking that they shouldn’t go,
We’re all we need,
Just you and me buddy,
Just fade into the nothing,
The nothing, let the nothing consume you,
That’s right, let go,
I have you, your all mine.
Waiting on God,
To come and save us,
Not really,
I'm daydreaming,
Things I know isn't true,
Nor that my mind may fathom,
Step back,
As we backpack,
The magic of Aladdin's lamp,
Releases the tight clamp,
Till I sleep in a place warm,
But damp,
Neither heaven nor hell,
But limbo is where the soul dwells,
Confused like Superman,
Waiting on myself to fail.
Have you ever been on the edge?
Fucked up beyond your own imagination?
Where life seems like a dream,
And temptation is the answer.
Lost in your thoughts,
In this cancer,
Life a trip,
That I don't want to experience,
But I'm living it,
And I'm feeling it.
Drinking myself into a coma,
Smoking till my death,
Am I ready to go yet?
I don't know,
If I am,
Or if I'm not,
Either way,
Let me go.
Let me fly,
Let me loose,
Just let me go.
Depression is back. But I guess this is life going in full circle again. It seems to be the human condition to be at the bottom longer than being on top. And for this to work some people must always suffer because others are always happy. So does this mean that every suicide leaves someone a happier person. Maybe, I don’t know but if so, (this is going to sound messed up) maybe one day I’ll be the benefactor of that joy. Pen to paper seems to be the only release which sucks because were in a typing age. So finger to keys then.
I know that I’m only talking to myself at this point. Because the person I always wrote to no longer reads this. Sad isn’t it? But I can’t pity or feel bad for myself, it’s against my nature. Another sad mute point at this stage in the game, is that I’m actually in need of someone to talk to. I guess I tired so hard to keep her around because I know of the pain of being alone. The fear of not having someone to turn to.
It must be nice. Having someone to talk to, that you could see once in a while. Or even having that person to begin with. It must be nice to experience life inside a circle of protection. Knowing if you expel someone that they are gone because the others will do the same. It must be nice, not being the outcast of a group. That you know people will always be there. Knowing that the ones who say they care won’t leave you. It must be nice.
I think that was just a bad level of my psychosis. But is it bad? Do we not all have a level of crazy? Is it crazy that I write to myself now, and post it on the internet? I don’t know and because no one will answer I will never know. Isn’t that grand?
For the imaginary reader out there, are you following me? When I die and people go to write about me, will you show them this? Will you tell them my story? When the social network destroys someone else will we learn? No because the social network is the only way some people can communicate. Something destroyed my conversation skills, I believe it to be text messaging and Facebook. It eliminated face time so you can’t even be sure that I (Maurice L. Brown II) is even the author of this blog. Is this a sensible post or a rant?
Would you rather read another poem by me? If you did exist your opinion would matter. Then again you couldn’t stop me from posting it. You would just have to stop reading now won’t you.
Lost Soul
Life
What is it?
What’s the point?
Born alone,
Die alone,
Then return to Earth.
What is there for those who don’t take?
Why should those who follow this return?
The lonely soul does not need rest,
That soul needs light,
Warmth and compassion,
If not only for a night,
Then return to a cold bitter day,
Cold sad alone bitter day,
Let this soul not rest in night,
But float until thy soul,
Meets another,
To make a happy soul,
Prepared to give,
So that one can receive.
I’m on the pursuit of happiness, I’ll be fine once I get it. Gaga, Cudi, Eminem, Slim, Dre, Snoop, Rev Theory, Fall Out Boy. Yeah it’s just me and you.
10 people, 9 thoughts, 8 questions, 7 answers, 6 reasons, 5 counts, 4 walls, 3 bodies, 2 words, 1 mind.
Trap in a body
Afraid of the sunlight
Dabbles into the arts
Few call it dark
He calls it an escape
Tarot cards, Ouija boards, and razor blades
5 point star on the bed room floor
Chants in foreign tongue
Waiting on the end
Light or a dark tunnel
Then he wakes up
And see that it all was a dream.
Lost in his head,
Or lost in translation.
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Kelvin Williams U damn whale walrus sleeping bastard that didn't happen with me it was with u and jenny
57 minutes ago · Like
Myles S. Lupo It doesn't surprise me
56 minutes ago · Like
Maurice Brown II I didn't start the flame war. But Kelvin wants a Sigma in his asshole preferably over 200 pounds!
54 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams Myles will not talk about ur bad descions in life aka a certain hair toucher
54 minutes ago · Like
Myles S. Lupo Ah, but. Never said I wanted it. And getting my hair touched Isnt as bad as having someone putting stuff up my butt. Haha
38 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski oh boy..i have a feeling im going to have to delete this after the whole convo ends ;P
37 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole Y delete. Let others no the truth of Kelvin.
35 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams ur rite Myles but have to remember my ass was never toughed like that but the same can not be said about u aka Reese pieces enjoy that chocolate ice cream
34 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams fuck u casey ur family and that's y u've lived that long
33 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski hahaha what just happened to those posts..like caseys? :P
33 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski oh there it is!
33 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski well there's swearing and sexual things being said on here..and i have younger people that i teach dance to, that are my friends on here, so i cant keep it up :P plus im sure my family would loveee to see this *sarcasm* :P
31 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski but continue for now..id love to hear what comes next.. lol
31 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams oh well blame maurice it's not my fault he started and dont believe his lies
30 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole Kelvin was jus tellin us of his gay adventures in high skool. He also said u were a cover. He says he really wanted dave
29 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole U no u liked meat spin Kelvin. Don't lie
28 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams Says the man that put the gay porn who got off on it screaming a certain female repellent who should named along with reliving past mistakes aka deep space
27 minutes ago · Like
Maurice Brown II Kelvin started the flame war. Then he said some very homo-erotic and homophobic things while we were sitting in the room. Then he suggested to watch meat spin on his laptop because he loves spinning penises on his laptop after the situation last year. He is very unsenative to peoples feeling on the subject and you two need to really have a talk. The fuzzy cuffs and the strap-on must go.
26 minutes ago · Like · 1 person
Christina Slomczewski hahaha yep casey..i already knew that! already caught him with another guy! lol ;P
25 minutes ago · Like
Maurice Brown II sorry about the poor spelling
25 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole I new it
24 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams Christina i shall now ignore u and go after the game stop female i love so much
24 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole U mean man
23 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski thats just mean!
fine ill go find someone new! ;P
22 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski any takers? ;P
22 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams no not mean jus justice and by new u must mean spencer
21 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski goodness..i knew that was coming ;P
21 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole Na. Any other man will be better straight or gay
20 minutes ago · Like
Kelvin Williams The same could be said about ur relationship with stumbles Casey and Christina there will be no mercy
18 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski meannn..
18 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole Wat same. ?????
17 minutes ago · Like
Casey Cole Were not on the same level I'm straight u gay = different level
16 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski hahahahaha casey!
oh goodness..just let me know when this is over..i still have work to do lol
15 minutes ago · Like
Christina Slomczewski ok, no more takers! i will be taking a screen shot of this for evidence and then deleting it lol
2 minutes ago · Like
Maurice Brown II i'll take u up on this lol. Kelvin stay back don't attack
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She said don’t call her name
Nor her telephone
I said I don’t want to be friends
I wanted her love
She wanted to run
I said don’t
She said let go
Through my brown eyes I watched her
Leave and in her wake
I felt hurt
I tasted bitter
I smelled fear
I heard despair
And lastly I saw myself
Running away
Then I realize she is me and we are one
Never facing the fear we share
I don’t know about this anymore,
You’re a whore,
And I’m no better,
I bleed red,
All over you’re blue sweater,
You look up,
But still down at me,
I try my hardest,
Yet you want more from me,
I hate you,
But without you I can’t be,
So stuck with you,
Forever is me,
Ying and yang,
Happiness isn’t free.
Rules are in place for a reason. Some rules shouldn’t be broken. Especially in public. Please follow the rules.
People change. That life but I feel like I‘m losing one of my dudes to a girl. Well that is most defiantly life. Oh well live and learn.
Next class is defiantly the worst. My professors bore me. That being nice.
Philosophy is always an easy A! Go with it as a first pick. Never take upper division English if you aren’t a major.
Lastly, never eat at Wick unless it is breakfast or you are extremely hungry.
Birth by sleep
Logical order
Makes the children weep.
Dream state
Illogical patterns
Keep us awake.
Bloodshot eyes
If you nap
I may die.
No breaks
Dream alive
If not my soul takes.
It’s seems like this friendship may have died. I don’t know, please show me a sign or something. A text message or a phone call is to much to as right? So even better a reply to a message or a text or a return call. I don’t know if I still have readers but if so you guys, you know how to get in touch with me. Peace.Love.Poetry.
Knowledge is power
Brilliance is a curse
Death is a blessing
For life is the worst
I’m weird, true story
I do things, think things
That I’m not even sure of
Breathe easy at night
For I’m never alone
I sleep in the winter
Therefore I’m always cold
And if I’m good
Summer is always black
But life isn’t black and white
Mine is defiantly a shade of grey
If you replace any of it
And I will fade away
Cause I’m destined to be different
An outcast from the start
To be true to someone else
You must be true to your heart
So here is the truth and nothing but it
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Hershel A. Snagg i'd rather get my drugs from juelz, go to rehab wit amy, take a trip wit journey, and have shots wit lil john and lmfao.
2 hours ago · Like ·
Maurice Brown II but im smoking with Snoop, reading stories with B.o.B., getting lost with Charles Hamilton, and killing the competition with Fab
2 hours ago · Like ·
Hershel A. Snagg i can do dat cuz i'm locked up wit akon, in a cell t.i, becuzi was runnin wit ghostface and jada, after camillionari warn us bout the hip hop police, bcuz me and papoose refuse to lose.
2 hours ago · Like ·
Maurice Brown II i feel you cause while im catching Bullets for My Valentine from the shooter 50 Cent, i Kick,Push like an All American Reject hand and hand with My Boo
about an hour ago · Like ·
Hershel A. Snagg well i ain't gonna get hit cuz me and michael jackson invincible, and when i'm wit big boi all of y'all follow us, and on ya last day wit nickelback u gonna look to me and enrique cuz i can b ur hero.
about an hour ago · Like ·
Maurice Brown II Phineas and Ferb built me a time machine, so I got to live 9Lives with Aerosmith, sit in the Yellow submarine with the Beatles, join batman as Prince did the soundtrack
about an hour ago · Like ·
Hershel A. Snagg wish i had a time machine so me and kanye could show the mighty morphin power ranger who got to much power, after that me and kiss can rock & roll all night long, and i'll do all this so me and gwen can have a sweet escape from lady gaga and her love games.
about an hour ago · Like ·
Maurice Brown II one more time with another bad romance, because sex with an ex is always best, and even though she plays love games, she cant read my poker face, and you know i make her say oh, but that to explicit so i play some other tracks off the soundtrack to my life, i love america's sweetheart and i dont care what they may think about her, imma stan beside her for this love is timeless
46 minutes ago · Like ·
Hershel A. Snagg nah day say a pregnent woman got the best pussy, and ther ain't no such thing as a bad touch, and thats y stacy's mom said y u so obessed wit me, so i told her no i'm jus a flurt, can i stick it in ya bus, and like shakira she said waka waka, i said lets get it on and the rest of the night she call called me sum like flocka flame.
31 minutes ago · Like ·
Maurice Brown II weezy spoke to us stories of pussy money weed, while 50 said money power respect, and i believe in respect a mothers wishes, dear mama i hope Jesus walks with me because, im seeing it all fall down, snitches in my room speaking through the wire, cause we move the weight to get paid, cause the role models most famous say its only one way, while the real role models get looked over each day, cause all these kids hear the teacher say is blah blah blah, while the young money teaches them gun play
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